Callum Westbrook crouched on the weathered planks of his shop's front step, a wire brush in one hand and a can of wood sealer in the other. The morning tide had crept high against the pilings overnight, leaving a line of dark weed and salt crust along the baseboards of Westbrook Marine Supply. He ran the brush along a soft groove in the wood, working the grit loose, watching the fine dust fall into the cracks between the boards.
The town of Breakwater Cove was waking up in layers. Across the lane, Mrs. Pell was unlocking the door of the post office, her keys jingling against the small brass bell she kept on a leather thong. Down at the wharf, the first of the lobster boats was already chugging out past the breakwater, its wake a pale green smear on the slate-colored water. Gulls wheeled above the fish plant, their cries thin and sharp against the steady hush of the surf.
Callum set the brush down and sat back on his heels. The sealer can was nearly empty; he had been meaning to order more for two weeks. He made a note of it in his head, the way he made notes of most things lately: quietly, without writing them down, trusting they would stay where he put them. They usually did.
A car turned onto the main street from the harbor road. Not a local car. He could tell by the sound of the tires on the cobbles, that particular hum of a sedan with new shocks and highway tread. Rental. Out-of-state plates, maybe. The color was hard to place in the early light, something pale, almost silvery. It slowed at the corner by the old hardware store, then nosed forward again, rolling past the fish market, past the bookshop with its blue awning, past the spot where the sidewalk buckled near the hydrant.
It stopped in front of what used to be Hargrove's Ice Cream.
Callum straightened up slowly.
He had been eight years old when his father had first set him to work in the marine shop, twelve when he had been allowed to sweep the front step alone, twenty when he had taken over the books. He had seen a thousand cars pull up along this stretch of Main Street, and he had learned to recognize almost every make and model from the sound of it before it came into view. He did not recognize this one.
door opened, and a woman stepped out onto the sidewalk. She stood for a moment, one hand on the roof of the car, the other pressed flat against her sternum as though she were trying to keep something from spilling out of her chest. Her hair was the color of the dune grass in October, and it had been cut shorter than it used to be. Her coat was the right shade of navy, but it was wrong for this place. Too clean. Too new. Too Boston.
Callum's hands, still slick with sealer, went still at his sides.
Vivienne.
The name arrived in his mind with the weight of an old chart pulled from the back of a drawer, its edges softened by years of salt air. He had not spoken it aloud in longer than he wanted to count. He had not needed to. In the summers of his youth it had been the most ordinary word in the world, called across the breakwater, whispered into the dark behind the fish plant, shouted up the hill when the fog came in and her mother wanted her home for supper. Vivienne. Vivienne. Vivienne. Now it came back to him strange and tentative, like a bird he had not seen in a decade landing on a rail he had stopped watching.
She had not seen him. Her eyes were moving along the storefronts with the careful, wincing attention of someone taking inventory of what had been lost. Hargrove's was gone, of course. The awning had come down three summers back. The windows were dark now, papered over from inside with yesterday's newspaper. She looked at it for a long moment, then turned away.
Callum picked up the brush again. His hand was not quite steady. He went back to work on the gunwale, though he could not have said afterward what strokes he laid down. He watched from the corner of his eye as she got back into the car, pulled the door shut with the careful motion of someone who did not want to make a sound, and drove on up Main Street, slowing for the school crossing that was no longer guarded by anyone, turning left at the light that still swung on its cable above the intersection.
She was going up the hill.
He knew the route by heart. Everyone in Breakwater knew it. Past the library with its marble steps, past the brick colonials that had been turned into bed-and-breakfasts, up the curving road that ran behind the old cemetery, and then right onto Harbor Lane, where the houses grew smaller and older and closer to the water. Where the clapboards held their paint for thirty years if they were lucky, and where the wind off the cove came in sideways through every loose shingle on a January night. Where Eloise Monroe had lived since before Callum was born.
He set the brush down in the can and wiped his palms on his thighs, leaving pale streaks on the denim. Then he stood, slowly, and walked to the open front of the shop. The morning light lay long across the cobbles, and the smell of brine and creosote was as familiar as his own breathing. Across the way, Henry was already inside the chandlery, sweeping the floor with the slow, metronomic motion he had used for forty years. Henry glanced up, nodded once, and went back to his sweeping. He had not seen the car. He had not been watching.
Callum told himself he was not going to follow her. He had work to do. The boat at the end of the dock needed her bottom scraped before the weekend. There were three anchors in the back that needed re-shackling, and a customer in Westport who had been waiting two weeks for a tide clock. He had a town to keep running, in the small, ordinary way that he kept it. There was no reason for him to walk the half mile up Harbor Lane. There was no reason at all.
He untied his apron and hung it on the hook by the door. He told Maeve, the old black cat who slept on the counter, that he would be back in twenty minutes. Maeve opened one yellow eye and closed it again, which was as close to permission as she ever gave.
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The clapboard house at the end of Harbor Lane had been painted the same shade of faded white for as long as anyone could remember. The shingles on the east wall had silvered in the salt wind, and the porch railing sagged in the middle where generations of visitors had leaned to watch the cove. Wisteria climbed the post by the steps, not yet in bloom, its bare canes knotted like old rope. The door was open, the screen latched, and from inside came the faint sound of a kettle beginning to whistle.
The silver car was already in the drive, pulled up close to the hedge of bayberry that bordered the property. Callum stopped across the lane, in the shade of the sycamore that had dropped half its branches in the nor'easter of 2018. From there he could see the porch, the door, the front window with its lace curtain pinned back with a clothespin.
He had no business being here. He knew it. He stayed anyway.
Vivienne had not made it to the door. She was standing on the bottom step, her hand on the rail, looking up at the house with the same expression she had worn in front of Hargrove's. Behind her, the screen banged open, and a girl came tumbling out.
Lily was smaller than Callum remembered, though he had only seen her twice, both times at a distance, once on the beach when she was still a toddler and once across the street at the Founders' Day parade. She had been a child then, and she was a child now, but the years between had changed her in the way years change all children, sharpening the angles of her face and deepening the look in her eyes. She had her mother's coloring, that October dune-grass shade, but her chin was Eloise's, stubborn and broad. She wore jeans that had been let out at the waist with a folded cuff, and a T-shirt that said BREAKWATER LOBSTER FEST in letters that were peeling off from years of washing.
"Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom."
She did not say anything else at first. She just said the word, running down the steps with her arms out, and then she was pressed against Vivienne's middle, her face buried in the navy coat, and Vivienne had both hands on the back of her daughter's head, holding her there as though she were afraid the wind might take her.
"I made you something," Lily said into the wool. "I made you something and I've been waiting since Tuesday."
Vivienne made a sound that was not quite a laugh and not quite a sob. "Let me look at you first."
"I can do both." Lily pulled back, her cheeks wet, and held up a sheet of card stock that had been folded and unfolded so many times the creases had gone soft as cloth. "Look. I did the seating chart. I did it all by myself. Grandma helped with the names but I did the lines. See? I used a ruler."
The chart was meticulous. Each table was a circle drawn in green marker, each circle numbered, each name written in a careful, slanting hand. There were stickers in the corners, small ones, lobsters and sailboats and hearts. At the head table, circled three times in pink, was a place card that read MAID OF HONOR in letters larger than all the others.
"Will you do it?" Lily asked. "Please. Please please please. I asked Grandma and she said I had to ask you myself. I made the sign and everything. See? It says it right there. It doesn't say maybe."
Vivienne took the chart with both hands. She held it the way a person holds a document they are not sure they have the right to sign. Her thumb traced the pink circle, then the words, then the little lobster in the corner. "Lily."
"Ten years is a long time." Lily's voice had dropped, though she was clearly trying to keep it light. "I know you had work. I know you had the buildings. But I counted. I counted on the calendar in my room and I put a sticker on every birthday and I never took a sticker off even when you didn't come because I thought maybe you would see them if you ever came to my room and I wanted you to know I was still here."
She said it without accusation, which made it worse. She said it the way a child reads a weather report, reciting facts that were too large for her to fully hold.
Vivienne set the chart down on the porch rail. She crouched so she was at her daughter's height, and she put both hands on the girl's shoulders. "I should have come. Every single time. I should have been here."
"But you're here now." Lily's chin trembled once and then steadied. "That's the thing Grandma says. You're here now and tomorrow is tomorrow and we have to put the chairs out by Saturday. Will you do it? The maid of honor thing? Because I don't want anyone else. I tried to imagine someone else and I couldn't. I kept seeing you in the blue dress and you looked right."
Behind them, the screen door opened again. Eloise Monroe stepped out onto the porch with the deliberate motion of a woman who had learned long ago that the body must be trusted to do what the heart cannot yet manage. She was smaller than she had been the last time Callum had seen her, at her husband's wake, though her shoulders had not changed. They still sat back the way a sailor's shoulders sit back, from years of bracing against a wheel. Her hair was pinned up in the same loose knot she had worn since the seventies, and her hands were white with flour up to the second knuckle.
She did not speak at once. She looked at her elder daughter for a long, measured moment, and then she looked at the chart on the rail, and then she looked at her granddaughter, who was vibrating with the effort of not crying again.
"Come inside," Eloise said. "Both of you. The kettle's going off and I've got shortbread in the oven that will burn if we stand out here another minute."
"Mom." Vivienne straightened. "I need to tell you something."
"You can tell me inside. You can tell me over tea. You can tell me while we ice the cake if that's what it takes. But you are not telling me on my front step with the whole of Harbor Lane watching." Eloise's gaze flicked, almost imperceptibly, toward the sycamore across the lane. "There are curtains in this town but there are no walls."
Vivienne nodded. She picked up the chart. Lily took her hand, and the three of them went inside, and the screen door banged shut behind them.
Callum stood in the shade for another minute, then another. The kettle's whistle cut off. From inside came the small, ordinary sounds of a kitchen in use, the clink of cups, the scrape of a chair, a child's voice rising and falling in the rapid cadence of a story being told. He could not make out the words. He did not need to.
He turned and walked back down the lane, past the bayberry hedge, past the wisteria, past the porch railing that sagged in the middle. The morning was bright and the gulls were crying and the cobbles rang under his boots the way they always had. He went back to the shop, and he picked up the brush, and he did not, for a long time, look up at the hill again.
Callum finished the second coat of varnish at half past five, set the brush in its jar of solvent, and racked the doors of the supply shop with the practiced motion of a man who had done it a thousand times. The brass padlock turned over with a small, decisive click. He pocketed the key, stood for a moment on the plank walk behind the building, and listened to the harbor settling into its evening sounds: halyards tapping against aluminum masts, the soft complaint of a halyard line somewhere up the dock, a diesel engine muttering out toward the breakwater, the high thin cry of a tern diving for a sand eel in the last of the light.
He should go home. Henry would have dinner waiting, or the start of one, and there were receipts in the shoebox under the counter that still needed to be sorted for the accountant. There was always something that needed sorting. Instead he walked down to the marina, untied the skiff from its slip, and motored out past the breakwater to check on the mooring he kept for the harbormaster in exchange for the use of the launch ramp and a small sum the town paid him quarterly, which he had not raised in eleven years because the town, like the man who ran it, did not have a great deal of extra.
The tide was ebbing. The granite blocks of the breakwater darkened as the water dropped away from them, and the barnacles showed their pale lips in the lower band where the salt had eaten at the stone for a hundred and twenty years. He cut the engine and drifted in beside the mooring ball, checked the rode, felt the chafing on the thimble, made a mental note to bring a new length of line in the morning. A cormorant surfaced ten feet from the boat with a small fish in its beak, regarded him with one oil-black eye, and dove again. The water closed over the place where it had been with a sound like a long, slow breath.
He was thinking about nothing in particular. He was thinking about varnish. About the right grade of turpentine. About whether Henry's arthritis had been worse today at lunch. About the weather coming in off the bank, which the old man with the Weather Service radio at the fuel dock had been predicting all week, and which Callum had been discounting because the old man had predicted the same front in July and it had gone out to sea without so much as a sprinkle. He was thinking, in other words, about exactly the things a man thinks about when he has worked with his hands all day and is tired in a way that is not unpleasant, and the evening is soft, and the boat rocks under him like a cradle.
He did not, at that moment, have Vivienne Monroe in his mind at all. He had put her there that morning and he had left her there, and the place where she was kept was a place he did not open except in private, and not often.
He motored back into the slip, tied up the skiff, stepped onto the float. The marina was quiet. Most of the summer boats had come in already, and the few people still on the docks were the diehards, the ones who loved the smell of fiberglass and diesel fuel more than they minded the cold creeping up off the water. Callum waved to one of them, a man he had known since kindergarten whose name he called out and who called something back that was lost in the slap of a fender against a hull. He walked up the float, climbed the ladder at the end of the dock, and stepped onto the asphalt apron at the head of the marina.
The breakwater path began there, ran out along the top of the great curved arm of granite that protected the inner harbor, and curved around at the lighthouse end before doubling back. He had walked it ten thousand times. He knew every loose stone, every patch where the asphalt had been patched again and had settled unevenly, every place where a blackberry cane had reached across from the rocks and grabbed at your sleeve if you were careless. He set off along it at his usual pace, hands in his jacket pockets, eyes on the water.
He had gone perhaps two hundred yards when he heard the footsteps coming the other way, on the same path, around the curve of the wall where the lighthouse stood. They were quick steps, the steps of someone in a hurry, or someone who was not thinking about where they were going because they were thinking about something else. He did not look up at first. He looked up when the steps rounded the corner and the person attached to them was suddenly very close, and he had to check his stride to keep from walking directly into her.
Vivienne stopped. Her hand came up, almost of its own accord, and touched his arm where his jacket sleeve was rough under her fingers, and then she took the hand back as if she had touched something hot.
"Callum," she said.
He could smell her perfume under the salt. Something she had not worn the summer he knew her, something she had perhaps found since. It made him feel, for one stupid instant, that he was a much younger man, and that the person in front of him was also a much younger woman, and that they were both about to make a different kind of mistake than the ones they had already made.
"Vivienne." His own voice came out lower than he expected, the husk in it thicker. He cleared his throat. "I didn't think anyone was out tonight."
"I needed to walk." She was breathing a little fast, as if she had been running the last part. Her eyes were not quite steady. "I needed to not be in that kitchen for one hour. I told Mom I was going out and she looked at me like I had announced I was sailing to Portugal, but she let me go."
He almost smiled. "She let you go."
"She said, 'You be back by nine, Vivienne, or I will send Daniel Ashford after you, and you know he will.'"
That did make him smile, a small one, the kind that came and went. "Daniel would go, too. If Eloise asked."
"I know." Vivienne pushed a strand of hair back from her face. The wind off the water was picking up. "I know he would. That's the trouble with this place. Everyone means it."
She had not moved out of his path. He had not, either. They stood there on the breakwater, with the light failing around them, and the lighthouse throwing its first long shadow out across the water, and the gulls going somewhere inland for the night.
"How's your father," he said, and then knew, before she answered, that he should not have asked it.
"He died," she said. "That's why I'm here."
He nodded. He had known. Of course he had known. The whole harbor had known. He had even sent flowers to the house, white lilies, because he remembered that her mother had kept lilies in the parlor when she was a girl and he had walked her home from the church social that one summer.
"I'm sorry," he said, which was the right thing, and not enough, and exactly as much as a man in his position was allowed to say.
"Thank you." She looked out at the water. A lobster boat was coming in, running lights on, the green and red winking against the dark like a slow pair of eyes. "I got in this morning. I haven't been back in eighteen years. I don't know why I'm telling you that, you probably knew that."
"I did."
She looked at him then, really looked, the way she had not at the shop. "Did you know about Lily?"
"Lily," he said. The word felt strange in his mouth. He did not know anyone named Lily. Or he had not, until this morning. "Your daughter."
"My daughter. She's eight. She wants to know why the ocean is so loud."
He did not know what to do with that. He looked down at his boots, at the cracked leather, at the salt that had dried white on the toes. "I could show her the marine supply," he said, and heard himself say it, and could not quite believe that the offer had come out of his mouth without his permission. "If she wanted. There are some things in there that a kid would find interesting. Old charts, a couple of seal skins I keep for the tourists, the skeleton of a skate that Henry mounted on a board. She'd like the skate."
Vivienne stared at him. "You're inviting my eight-year-old to look at a dead fish in your shop."
"I'm inviting your eight-year-old to look at a very well preserved specimen that Henry has had on the wall for forty years and which is, I am told, of considerable scientific interest."
The corner of her mouth moved. Just a little. He saw it, and he looked away, because if he kept looking he was going to do something he had promised himself he would not do, which was to feel, in front of her, anything at all.
"I have to be back by nine," she said. "Mom will send Daniel."
"Then I'll walk with you as far as the lane." He fell into step beside her, not too close. The path was wide enough. The light was almost gone. "And you can tell your mother you ran into me, and she can be furious about that instead of about you being out."
"She will be furious about both."
"Yes," he said. "She will."
They walked in silence for a while. The lighthouse beam came around and swept across them and was gone, and the dark came back softer for having been broken. Somewhere up the hill, in the old shingled house above the cove, a light went on in a kitchen window. He could not see it from here, but he knew the house, and he knew which window it was.
Vivienne saw him looking up the hill. "That's not your house, Callum."
"No."
"You're looking at it anyway."
He brought his gaze back to the path. "Old habit."
She did not say anything to that. They walked on, around the curve of the wall, past the lighthouse, past the bench where the town had put up a small plaque in memory of the harbormaster who had served from 1952 until 1987 and whose name neither of them could remember at that moment, though they both pretended to read it. The path straightened. The marina came back into view below them, and beyond it the town, and beyond the town the houses climbing up toward the ridge where the Monroes had lived since before anyone in either family could remember.
At the head of the lane Vivienne stopped. She turned to face him. The porch light at her mother's house was on, and it threw a long yellow beam down across the cobbles, and she stood just at the edge of it, half in, half out.
"Thank you," she said. "For walking me back."
"You're welcome."
"And for the offer. About Lily. The skate."
"Anytime."
She nodded. She did not say good night. She did not step forward. She stood there for a long moment, and he stood there too, and the light from the porch fell across them both, and somewhere inside the house a dog barked once and was hushed, and a child's voice rose and fell in the cadence of being told a bedtime story by a grandmother who had been telling bedtime stories in that house for sixty years.
Then she turned, and she walked up the lane, and she did not look back. He watched her until the dark took her, and then he turned, and he walked back down to the marina, and he untied the skiff, and he motored slowly home through the flat, black water, with the lighthouse beam sweeping over him and the town quiet above him and the chapter, at last, closed.